Monday, April 29, 2013
Both of my fitness role models were each trying to ease me into the idea of adding running back into my life. I refused to hear them. Somewhere along the line, I had convinced myself that I didn't deserve that amazing feeling when you run. I was holding myself back, thinking that I could only walk. They believed in me more than I believed in myself. They could see what I was capable of before I could. In deciding to trust them, my training has just been amped to a whole new level. A level that I didn't not even know I was capable of. What was starting to seem impossible is now coming back into view.
As I was powering through on Thursday night, I started to think about all of my "lessons from soccer"...and how following the beautiful game has changed my perspective on everything. I never played sports. I was never on a team. I have never scored a point in anything. I have never had a coach. But now, as a soccer fan, I am exposed to all of these things and more. I get to see how all of the pieces fit together to create something really special (players, coaches, and staff). If I could sum up this week with one lesson...it would be this..."Allow Yourself to be Coached".
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
I also know it is not just my tree in bloom that has made the difference. For the first time in a very long time, I'm actually keeping records of my blood sugars. I'm completely addicted to the My Fitness Pal app...which has completely changed my game in terms of managing my health. When I see my endocrinologist in another week or so...I am going to have real records to show. I have so much more energy. I feel stronger. I am in control. I am going to walk 13.1 miles. And then...I am going to train and walk 26.2 miles.
Thursday, April 18, 2013
My life used to be work, school, and helping to take care of grandparents. Then...it was work and helping to take care of my grandparents. Then...it was work and helping to take care of my grandma. And then it was just work. It is very different now...I have lots more time for fun and different kinds of work. I'm scheduling around soccer fandom...time with friends...time with family (see soccer fandom)...time with my boyfriend Gym...and then there is this whole training to walk 13.1 and then 26.2 miles (see Boyfriend Gym - many more hours are spent with him). This training thing is no joke and it is an entirely new experience for me. It has added more things to my list...long distance walks...sleep...nutrition...better diabetes management (mind you...this should have always been on my list)...and did I mention sleep? I'm so tired...and sore...most of the time. But if feels really good...in a strange way.
My weekends are all about the long distance walks...since I am slow...it takes me a few hours...and as the distance increases...those hours increase. I always think that I can just plan things out...but I have found...stuff happens...plans get jockey'd around...and then even better things happen. Maybe you don't always need a clipboard? The fun of the unplanned. Two weekends ago I had my heart set on getting down to the Tidal Basin to do my long distance walk...and then I was just going to go and write...and then I just didn't get there. Different fun happened in a different sequence...not at all according to my original plan. So I ended up going to see the Cherry Blossoms after work the following Tuesday...when the blooms were at perfect peak. I escaped the office earlier than usual...sat on the steps of the Jefferson Memorial...took in the view...wrote...it was pure bliss. I know that you can't do everything you want to...when you want to...but that is okay...I just need to remember to put down the clipboard (sometimes).
Monday, April 15, 2013
I get faster? I won't know unless I keep trying...
Sunday, April 7, 2013
I had a great six mile walk yesterday...my time was horrible...my pace was not what it needs to be...but this was my first time out on the open road with
hills...and stop lights...so I am not panicking...well...maybe a little bit. Yes, I had that moment of "why the hell are you doing this? you really think you can keep the 4.0 mph pace? you are not going to finish the half in 4 hours at this pace." But like with any goal...you have to just tune out the doubt...and remember...who makes it happen...I do!! What would be the fun of obtaining what it is you are after if it was easy peasy to get there? There are peaks. There are valleys. The key is to keep moving forward.